Sunday, December 7, 2008

Sean McLoughlin

My family and I went to the ocean a lot when I was a kid. One time when I was around 5, I was playing in the water and an undercurrent got a hold of me. It sucked me in quick, so quick that my mom and dad didn't even see it happen. Luckily some college age kids were walking buy and one dived in and grabbed me and pulled me out. Ever since I've had a paralyzing fear of oceans. I still love to visit them but I don't bother bringing a bathing suit because I won't be swimming.

I also have an irrational fear of mirrors when the lights are out. I'm afraid I'm going to see my dead grandmother or Jesus or something. If I'm entering a dark room with a mirror, I turn a light on and I do not allow mirrors in the room I sleep in.

As a kid I was afraid of towers and other tall objects around me. They gave me a strong sense of vertigo and I thought they were going to fall on me. I've since grown out of this fear although I still get vertigo around tall buildings or if I look into the sky while on top of a tall building.

My last irrational fear occurs only when driving (for obvious reasons). I'm perpetually afraid that my airbag is going to go off accidentally and cause me to crash. I've had lots of crazy things happen while driving (like having the hood fly up and take out my windshield) and I've gotten out ok and without further accident. But somehow I'm convinced that if the airbag goes off while I'm driving it will be the end of me. I'm considering installing a steering wheel without an airbag. My current steering wheel feels like a loaded gun pointed at my face the entire time I'm driving.

3 comments:

Martin said...

I had the same fear of the airbag. Not all the time, but during a highway trip, I just started freaking out. Never heard anyone say that until now.

Melissa said...

I'm the same with mirrors, can't look at them when it's dark. When I walk into the bathroom, I have to look down as I turn on the light because the mirror is right ahead of the door. My head tells me there's nothing to be afraid of, but I just can't bring myself to look.

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